It doesn’t really matter what you manifest or don’t manifest. All that matters is you’re here. Your main function is to serve as a conduit between the realms of heaven and earth, between the causative and manifest levels of reality and in so doing transmit and receive as much love as you can.
All the rest is secondary and will take care of itself in any case. And the more love you radiate and open yourself to receive, from everyone and everything everywhere, the more elegantly it tends to do so, even and especially when you can’t logically or rationally see how.